Tuesday, December 16, 2008

PASKO NA NAMAN!!!!! (Christmas Essay-part 1)


And when you feel the cold breeze rushing through your room, when you hear the bells ring as early as 3 AM, when you hear voices accompanied by the guitar and tambourine in front of your house, when you smell the delectable Puto Bumbong and Bibingka, with the Hamon and Quezo on the side, when you sip the awakening tea, when you are blinded by the blinking lights, and most especially, when you realize that you don't have enough money to give to your godchildren, then you are feeling already the spirit of the Yuletide Season!

In reality, there's no room for sadness for this time of joy, rejoicing and felicitations! when you feel blue on Christmas day, it's like you're on Good Friday. Parang anhirap tanggapin!

But what really is behind the season that made it special?

In deeper realization, we see that it was God's Divine will for us to celebrate this season. Look! If Christ was not born, December 25 will be a day that will pass by without the thought. Parang... wala lang! Everything will never be realized, and Christmas will bever be experienced by each and everyone of us.

Let us remember guys... CHRIST IS THE CENTER OF CHRISTMAS. Everything will be a vain train if Christ never dwelt among us.

I remember what Father Junjun said in today's Misa de Gallo...


Yes. When we do our Christmas traditions, there is somewhat a commitment in everything we do. We try to do our promises and duties, and to do it to the best extent possible. There's nothing bad in every tradition, but with it is our commitment to God and to our neighbor.


Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Hidden in Weldann...

What Weldann Lester Means
You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

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The Faux Pas of everything... (Top Six!!!)

turmoils that made these past weeks a faux pas for me...
(a social plunder)


After days of assisting the Priest-in-charge (Fr. Junjun), it seemed as if issues were growing fast. There's this news that I'm... a zipper to the Priest. Guys! Please naman! I don't like being involved in things like that! And one more thing, wala naman akong kasalanan!!!
After weeks of being appointed, The officers go... low? How come? Perhaps, because of each and everyone's business. Sana, hindi siya monkey business. Hey!!! Mikko, Coocoo, Lucky!!! Asan na kayo???
I will tell my subjects for this Sem: Play Prod, Humanities, Mythology,... shall I continue? I mean, look! It's getting terrible as days go by... I pray to the Lord that he may still give me the strength to wake up each day and go to school.
With the feast of Christ the King this sunday, problems come up. It's more of the leadership side. Look! Kung gumagawa kayo, tatahimik na lang ako! That's all!!!
I don't want to do this. Ayoko ng away!!! I'm calling on those who simply cannot get through with the transfer of authorities, and blame me for being this and being that. Tigilan ninyo na ako!!! Wala naman akong ginagawa sa inyo, ah!
The time management issue again. For those who wanted to have a piece of me (Not the one you're thinking!), think of my schedule. Don't be a burden to me.


You know, this convivence, one of the words I received is this: everyday is a day of conversion. Everyday, the Lord is calling everyone to stand up from falling. I pray to the Lord that he may still guide me as me. Look! I'm not a saint! I'm a sinner, I'm not worthy to be in his presence!!!

I look on myself, I realized that as every single day passes by, I turn out to be a monster. Something that I don't want to be. Fra Dave said in his post, "gulong-gulo na ako." I say in this post, "nasasaktan, naguguluhan, at nahihirapan na ako!!!"

Now, ask me, why did I created this post? Simply, because nasaktan ako. Umaray ako! Naguguluhan ako! Nahihirapan na ako! But after this, nobody will hear me again reacting like a child. That's why this is a faux pas, a social plunder, because what I don't want the whole world to see, I want them to see, and hear! It's not for me, it's for you all! I want you to see who I am now. Not as a SUPERserver, but as a sinner.

Please, join me in your prayers. May this day be, for me, a day of TRUE CONVERSION.

This is your TOP SIX, now signing OFF!!!

Friday, October 24, 2008

TOP SIX!!! Sembreak Edition

Things that made/am making/will make me busy on the next two weeks...
(basically, because it's sembreak!!!)


The turnover ceremony is just days away. Sadness covers the days as
5. AND FR. JUN REPLACES FR. JUN! Don't be confused! The Other Fr. Jun to replace the present parish priest is Rev. Fr. Jun de guzman, the newly-ordained priest of the Diocese of Kalookan. As of now, he is the Parochial Vicar of Immaculate Conception Parish in Malabon City.
4. MAS-VSB IN ACTION. And not only VSB, but it is also in the diocese. There is this DMAS Planning session in Balite, Batangas (Marian orchard) from the 28th to the 30th of the month. After that, there is an outpour of the activites for the vicariate. hahahayyyy!!!
3. SEM BREAK NAH!!! This coming week will be the last week of the 1st sem for SY 08-09. naka-5 months na pala!!! hard time with the finals, added up with some projects, and a demo teaching ... but it's still worth it, malapit na kasi.
2. SOMEBODY DUMPED ME THIS PAST WEEK. but for this time, for the good. It would be nice if I would tell about this post... I am falling again... with St. Francis of Assisi!!! How come? There's this book entitled "Walking with Brother Francis" It's a devotional about St. Francis, with some of his writings, and prayers for spiritual nourishment.
1. HOLINESS... THE FRATERS... AND THE PROFESSION! For more of this, take a glance at my last post. It's overwhelming, I can still feel the thrill until now! I continue to give thanks to the Lord who gave us the strength to go on, despite the hardships.


That pic you can see above is taken from a very sunny afternoon, last Oct. 04, 2008. For me, it's a sign of a God watching over his people, giving us the pillar of cloud to be our guide as we walk the path of holiness and sanctity.

With that, I close this installment of the Top Six!

Monday, October 13, 2008


events that will shape my destiny for the coming weeks...


6. FR. JUN IS LEAVING... And everybody is saddened with the news. he is due to leave SCP on Oct. 30, so that he can proceed to the San roque Cathedral, Caloocan City on Nov. 01.
5. AND FR. JUN REPLACES FR. JUN! Don't be confused! The Other Fr. Jun to replace the present parish priest is Rev. Fr. Jun de guzman, the newly-ordained priest of the Diocese of Kalookan. As of now, he is the Parochial Vicar of Immaculate Conception Parish in Malabon City.
4. MAS-VSB IN ACTION. And not only VSB, but it is also in the diocese. There is this DMAS Planning session in Balite, Batangas (Marian orchard) from the 28th to the 30th of the month. After that, there is an outpour of the activites for the vicariate. hahahayyyy!!!
3. SEM BREAK NAH!!! This coming week will be the last week of the 1st sem for SY 08-09. naka-5 months na pala!!! hard time with the finals, added up with some projects, and a demo teaching ... but it's still worth it, malapit na kasi.
2. SOMEBODY DUMPED ME THIS PAST WEEK. but for this time, for the good. It would be nice if I would tell about this post... I am falling again... with St. Francis of Assisi!!! How come? There's this book entitled "Walking with Brother Francis" It's a devotional about St. Francis, with some of his writings, and prayers for spiritual nourishment.
1. HOLINESS... THE FRATERS... AND THE PROFESSION! For more of this, take a glance at my last post. It's overwhelming, I can still feel the thrill until now! I continue to give thanks to the Lord who gave us the strength to go on, despite the hardships.


That pic you can see above is taken from a very sunny afternoon, last Oct. 04, 2008. For me, it's a sign of a God watching over his people, giving us the pillar of cloud to be our guide as we walk the path of holiness and sanctity.

With that, I close this installment of the Top Six!

Monday, October 06, 2008

The Aftermath of the Profession (Echoing the YES!!!)

How does it feel when you're in the situation when you are saying the sweet 3-letter word YES to the Lord?


How did it happen? Look at the scenario. You are in the midst of terror and fright in your life. You are scourged and crowned with the thorns of iniquity and self-pity. You are fed with sexuality and base passions. Most of all, you are wearing the cap of pride and hatred. Then all of a sudden, you are there, face-to-face with God who is telling you, "come to me, proclaim my Good news! Tell everyonme that Holiness is very possible!" Now. tell me, isn't it complicated?

When you say that yes, it would mean you are ready to leave everything. Certainly a puzzle for me. I am asking myself last night, how? how can I do this, when I know that sin is still in my veins? It's still like you are trying to get loose from the chains of the world. Something that I must do in order to get really involved in the Vineyard. When I am telling the words of profession, it's like telling me, "Bitoy, simula sa araw na ito, titigil ka na sa pagiging ganito, pagiging ganyan, at lahat-lahat na. Kakayanin mo ba?" And me answering, "Lord, alam mo na hindi ko kaya kung sa akin lang. Tinawag mo ako dito four years ago, kasi alam mo na may misyon ako para sa kapatiran na ito. Paano ko sasabihing hindi, kung nandyan ka naman?"

You know what, guys, it's like a fulfilling moment after that, despite the oppositions I received when I returned to Tanza. It's not leaving the Way for CCS, but it's more of an enrichment activity for me, who's walking in the Neo Catechumenate. I realized that the mission I have in CCS will never be deepened if I'm not walking in the Way, and what I'm undertaking in the Way will never be understood without the CCS. Both the Way and the CCS teaches me to live according to the Gospel, in the spirit of Baptism, and the inspiration of the saints. In other words, it's like a tripod, with the MAS in the other foot.

I give thanks to the lord who never retires of giving his people life and love. I am because I know, CCS will never be CCS, Dave will never be Dave, Lloyd will never be Lloyd, Matthew will never be Matthew, and I will never be me without Him who sustains us with every best gift he could give. In realization, The 5th anniversary of CCS will never be a success with the Triune God, our Lord and Master. I pray that we will forver remain faithful to this profession we made. Yes, we cannot do it without Him. DEO GRATIAS!

Thanks also to those people who shared with our joy yesterday. Most of all, to our parents who gave us the reason to be holy: the act of giving us the chance to live. Thanks also to the Cooperators, Scholars, visitors and friends who were there to be with us in that moment of Joy.

Back to the intro...

How does it feel when you're in the situation when you are saying the sweet 3-letter word YES to the Lord?


But yes, it is still sweet, because God is there. He loves us, and will guide us to the fulfilling of the profession we made!!!



Thursday, October 02, 2008

Fr. Jun's Words...

Fr. Jun's words on the Feast of St. Therese, words which I pass on to CCS:

"... sana, sa araw na ito, hilingin natin sa Diyos na tulad ni Santa Teresita ng Lisieux, ay maging humble tayo, at hindi hambog. Ito ang nagpabukal nang lalo sa kanyang karisma't bokasyon. Kapag tayo'y humble, sasabihin sa atin ng diyablo, 'wala akong mapapala sa iyo.' "

Monday, September 29, 2008

a commitment... a dedication (special post for the 5th anniversary of CCS)

The 5th Anniversary of the Confraternity of Catholic Saints
October 01, 2008
"Limang Taong puno ng Pagpapala, ibahagi ang biyaya, Kabanalan ipamalita"

IT was last saturday when I received the letter from Fra. Francis stating the program for the 5th anniversary of the CCS on Sunday, Oct. 05. Actually, I was still asking myself if I am ready to dedicate (or shall we say... commit) myself on that day. It would be hard for me in the first place, since It will change my lifestyle a little bit more. In these times that I see myself as a broken sinner, a runaway servant, it would be really hard.

I am not saying this because I'm not really ready. I'm saying this because I know that this activity will help the five pioneer members discover more the importance of invoking the help of God through the Church and her Saints, and with that, we must be ready to face the challenges that lie behind. It will be a failure if the person to commit to this vow is not ready to do so.

Inspired of this, and as a way of celebrating the 5th year of CCS, I have here 5 questions to help everybody, especially the five pioneers, to cope up with the activities for Sunday...

1. Am I really proclaiming that "Holiness is very possible?"
- There are some of us who just entered CCS because they wanted relics, or they are attracted to the CCS Cross and the cope or something else (any oppositions?), when the real reason of entering the CCS is to be roasted in the oven of the Word of God, and be marinated with the gifts of the Holy Spirit, with the stuffings of the saints (I'm hungry!).

2. Are my prayers really for those intended?
- We know that the intentions (not putting the personal intentions behind) must be intended for the Pope, the Bishop, and for the unity in the Church. Well, still, there are some of us who do not pray for these people - worse, they do not pray at all.

3. Do I invoke the saints for the inspiration and strength I need?
- We are looped up in the worldly things - computers, cellphones, studies, fame, jobs, money. And believe me, we usually forget to pray to the white-robed army to get through, and get out of it.

4. Do we live a HOLY life?
- Same as number 1, but it has a different sense. Proclaiming is more powerful if it has living, since proclaiming is just telling, yet living is proclaiming with the deeds. Don't forget St. James' words... "Show me your faith, I'll show you my faith through good deeds."

5. After the Consecration, what's NEXT?
- I will tell you. After the activity on Sunday, I don't know what will happen to my life. But something's more important. After the consecration, we must live according to God's Will. It's that simple, and complex. Like, Man! how will it happen? Well... just let the wind blow.


As of the post time, the anniversary is just 6 days away. I invite you all to pray for everybody in the CCS, because I know that everybody is not ready to face the consecration (even the pioneers). It will happen if we rely on our strength.
And so, I invite you all to pray for us that we may rely on the grace of the Triune God who continues to sustain us in those times when we are down, and on those times when joy overflows from our hearts.

For the Cooperators and Scholars, please pray for your fraters. We are just... frail humans. we can't do it if we are alone. Pray for us that we may face the battles with the help of God and His Saints.

For the other fraters, pray for your pioneers. it's not because we so matander (older) than you, but because we are a part of a family, a ministry.

For my fellow Pioneers, we will never go this far without the Divine Will. Continue to strive for Holiness. I know, we can still make it through! God continues to love each and every one of us, and He will never let us down. Ngayon pa ba?

And to everybody, from the fraters, to the Cooperators, to the Scholars, and to our friends, A Very Fruitful Anniversary to each and everyone of us! Live accoring to Christ's word... DUC IN ALTUM!!!


Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Happy Birthday Fads!!!


Rev. Fr. Elpidio A. Erlano, Jr.

Fr. Jun

September 19, 2008

We Love You!!!

From your SCP Family

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

a cry of somebody...

this is the cry of my soul right now. sorry for the lapses... oh, the pic, it's me and my classmate... I don't want to tell his identity.

bakit ganun???

I always try to give my best for the ones I love, whoever they may be. Pero it is as if everything is in vain! I always try to be according to their style, to their flow (with God's will on my hand so that I won't be walking astray), but to no avail! It hurts for me!!!

I try to live with them,... but it's as if I'm rejected!

bakit ba ganun? kahit ba ganito ako, eh kaya na nila ako ganun-ganunin? It's unfair!!! to the point of asking me kung bakit ko "minamanyak" ang isang partikular na tao, kahit na wala akong ginagawa? Masama bang lumapit at kulitin ang isang tao?

I always ask myself, sa akin ba ang mali kung bakit hindi niya ako pinapansin, kung bakit lagi nila akong iniitsipwera?


Hindi na mauulit ito! I will never fall again in this catastrophe!

hindi na...


Monday, September 08, 2008

A Special Poem to somebody I love the most...


She's just a simple girl
Born of the Israelite tribe
The fairest in all of Nazareth
And -so to say - in all humankind.

You can never say that she had the stain
Or even a drop of the eternal sin
For she was chosen among them all
To be the great mother of the God so supreme.

From the stable, we can see her
Holding the Word-flesh in her arms
Upon the Cross, she also stood
Seeing her son, entrusting her to us.

She lived a very holy life
upon death, she lived better:
Assumted up above,crowned as a queen
Lady and Mistress of the heavenly Court.

And so, on this day, We offer to her
All the honor and intercession
Because on this day, we remember
This was the day She was born.


September 08, 2008

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Quote of the Day...

Too many people get credit for being good, when they are only being passive. They are too often praised for being broadminded when they are so broadminded they can never make up their minds about anything...

(Servant of God Bishop Fulton Sheen)


Pilgrims Theme - Unknown Artist

Well, this goes to those people - including me - who are always praised because we are good... in an awkward way. It is not because I am a good person per se, but I simply do not want to be praised for that. That would simply be the reason why I feel like this.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Mi Familia... (Friendster Blogs - June 26, 2006; Xanga - July 05, 2006)

(Gogo Note: this post is one of my very first-and most controversial-blogposts in the web. This is about my reproaches regarding the most basic unit of society where I belong... my Family. Perhaps this would supply my special wish for this 18th year of life for me.
A little History: I wrote this in fs blogs, June 26, 2006. It was entitled "Are They my Family?" I was already walking in the Way some time, so I may say that I am not scandalized of posting this over the net. That proved to be wrong, because many people were scandalized upon viewing this; among them is my dete, or sister. It became a cause of a little reprimanding, and a lot more controversy, that made me decide that this post should be transferred to my account in Xanga, on July 05, 2006, as a private post so that I can retrieve it sometime later... that would certainly be NOW.
What's inside the "controversial" blog? Read on... Please understand the contents, and if you feel scandalized, don't worry, it's only for the contacts. A related post will follow later.)

meron akong problemang pinapasan... isang problemang mahirap harapin, at sana, ay maharap ko na talaga.

isang araw ay kinausap ako ng pamilya ko. napapansin nila na nagbago na ang pakikitungo ko sa kanila, habang mas gumaganda naman ang pangalan ko sa mga kaibigan ko, at mga kakilala ko sa labas. alam ko na nawawalan na ako ng panahon sa kanila, at dinedevote ko na ang panahon ko para sa mga kakilala ko sa labas.

ang sabi ng isa, "ayusin mo ang tym sked mo." ang sabi ng isa, "gumawa ka naman sa bahay."

pero ang sabi ng isa...

"kami ang pamilya mo, hindi sila. wala silang magagawa sa iyo , kami lang. nagpapayabangan lang kayo sa Simbahan, nagpapataasan ng yabang. sila na lang ang laging tinutulungan mo. paano na kami? wala na ba kaming puwang sa puso mo? pinanganak ka para tumulong sa amin, hindi sa kanila. tatandaan mo yan!!!"

dahil dun, nasaktan ako, mas lalong naginit ang inis ko sa kanila. hindi nila makuha ang impresyon ko. hindi sa nagrerebelde ako sa kanila, pero kilangan ko lang naman ng pagkakaintindihan. hindi ko kasi maintindihan. mahal na mahal ko sila, at alam ko na ginagawa rin nila ang lahat upang iparamdam na mahal nila ako. pero dapat bang sabihin ng isang tao yun?

alam ko sa sarili ko, hindi lang sila ang pamilya ko. ang lahat ng mga nakakasalamuha ko, pati sila ay pamilya ko rin!!! mula sa mga kasama ko sa Altar Servers, hanggang sa mga kasama ko sa paglalakad sa daan, hanggang sa mga ka-batchmeyt ko sa ICPS, hanggang dun sa mga naging guro ko, hanggang dun sa mga taong nakilala ko nang di-sinasadya, hanggang sa inyo na mga friends ko sa friendster, at hanggang sa mga taong naiinis at nagagalit sa akin, to the point na sumpain nila ako... lahat sila ay pamilya ko, at walang makakagalaw sa kanila.

pero ang mali ko lang dun, ay ang pagkawala ko ng panahon sa tunay na pamilya ko. dahil dun, ay humihingi na ako ng kapatawaran sa kanila, kasabay ng pangakong mas lalo akong magdaragdag ng panahon para sa kanila. sana, ay matanggap nila ito. sori sa lahat ng mga panahon na nawalan ako ng panahon para sa kanila. hindi ko sinasadya. mahal na mahal ko sila!!!

bilang pagtatapos, ay hayaan ninyo akong kumuha ng ilang bahagi ng akda ni Kahlil Gibran, ang sumulat ng "The Prophet":

And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said, "Speak to us of Children."

And he said:

Your children are not your children.

They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.

They come through you but not from you,

And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts.

For they have their own thoughts.

You may house their bodies but not their souls,

For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.

You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.

For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.

The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.

Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;

For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable.

mula sa harap ng Kompyuter at sa kaibuturan ng aking puso, Hunyo 26, 2006


Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Song of the Day...

Song of the day: Sa Mata Makikita (Roel Cortez)

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kaylangan pa bang ako ay tanungin
kaylangan pa bang sayo ay bigkasin
na mahal kita at wala ng iba
masdan mo't makikita
sa aking mga mata

kaylangan pa bang ako ay lumapit
at sabihin sayo ang laman ng dibdib
na mahal kitaa at wala ng iba
masdan mo't makikita sa aking mga mata

hindi na kailangan ako ay tanungin
hindi na kailangan sayo ay bigkasin
sa tuwing magtatama ang ating paningin
sa mata makikita anga aking damdamin

masdan mo't makikita sa aking mga mata
masdan mo't makikita sa aking mga mata

Pilgrim's Theme

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Pilgrim's Theme

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

What will happen on October 12...

This is a repost of what will happen to the future. It's a reminder, especially for me as one among these. I invite you all to pray for us Fraters, especially for me.
The reality is this: After October 12, CCS will have a brand new face, I believe in that.
The text goes like this... (

Good luck to the Pioneer Fraters who will be in preparation for the Formal Consecration and Reception to the Confraternity of Catholic Saints during the Thanksgiving Mass on October 12, 2008, Sunday, at the Chapel of Saint Joseph, Immaculate Conception Cathedral School, Lantana Street, Cubao, Quezon City.

Fraters: Francis Teresa Maria, Tarciso Bonaventura Maria, Joseph Pio Maria, John of Saint Mary, John Ezekiel Maria, Paul Lawrence Maria, Josemaria, John Therese Maria [In the U.S.A.]


Friday, August 22, 2008

Da Bday Week...

things that made my birthday week very,... amm.... exciting!

6. IT CAN BE DEFINED AS A VACACION IL GRANDE! Imagine, no classes on Monday, no classes as scheduled on Tuesday (My Birthday), classes suspended on Wednesday (eventhough I came to class for the first period. CMU suspended its classes by 10:15 AM), no classes on thursday (as scheduled.), and the Educ Week at CMU today (Yes, I came to school, minus the classes.).
5. MY BIRTHDAY WAS FULL OF INSECURITIES. Same shirt, different day. I wanted gifts, that's all... material gifts. Good thing, my brothers at the community reminded me of the real meaning of life, putting aside the material things. (Frail personality... what's new?)
4. THE FULL CIRCLE WAS AROUND ME. I had the community by Morning, recieving Fr. Jun's blessing for the whole year. The whole day was well-spent with my family by my side. Evening was spent with some of my fellow brothers at the Altar, and some of my classmates. Added with the text messages from the Fraters, Scholars and friends.
3. ENDEAVOURS GALORE!!! Educ Week: I had a cameo role in the Mass celebrated this morning as the server "to da rescue!"; adding the quiz bee, falling to 5th place because of little preparation. Tomorrow: I am one of the representatives for MAS to the diocesan Pastoral Planning Seminar-Workshop. That, among others. (acting like a busy body again!!!)
2. GREAT FOOD, GREAT CELEBRATION!!! Don't ask for the details. What made this item great was the food!!! Sandamakmak ang handa!!!
1. GOD IS BY MY SIDE. The statement tells its soul, AS ALWAYS. He had never let me down this week, to the point of slapping my face just making his presence known to me. This week will never be the best week of the year, because of Him.

I remember what my classmates said when they were at my place... "Cheers to Weldann, and to all his doings for this coming year!!!"
Well, I hope that it will go more deeper than that!



Saturday, August 16, 2008

Here Comes Da Wishes!!!



3. I saw this past year how the people around me accepted me as me (that's why I need wish no. 1. read on.), not putting aside those who are part of my Hall of Shame. They, in general, became a part of my life. But I'm not saying that it occurs all the tym. There are some instances that people, whether good or bad, don't understand what I'm trying to voice out. Well, it doesn't matter. This wish goes to them... I wish for them to live very good lives, to have nice friends and great enemies. I wish for them to live understanding their joys and sorrows, and to live according to the will of the Supremo.

2. I had this message days ago... You are not born to please them all! With that, I realized deeper what my mission is to God, and to people. Actually, this an annex of Wish number 1, only that this is concise. As for Wish No. 2 for this year, I wish that I may deeply realize what my life is, what my mission will be, and how can I live out my Baptism. I will not realize this wish without the help of everybody around me, and of God who watches over us.


1. As I carefully discern over the first wish (and the three in general), I realized that there is no more need to wish for anything. But deep inside me, I saw this need that I must ask for this coming year. I saw this year as a year of make-shifts, a year of masks. It was not the real me. And so, I wish that I would see the better me; I wish to see in my eyes the Weldann that I am supposed to be. I also wanted to arrange each and every priority that I have in my life. It is the same wish as the former years as wish no. 1, and I saw the reality of this wish. It's only that I need greater discernment. Besides, it's not got in just one blogging.

I had one special wish, which I wanted to tell everybody in private. I will open it up only to people who are in my network, esp. the Fraters. Watch out for it.

You know, I am carefully having everythng that I wanted in life, every material thing I wished - and continually wish - to have for this year (new shoes, a guitar kahit na pahiram lang, a J. Bible, the Christian Prayer that I recieved last year, and most of all, the gift of the Pilgrimage in Iloilo). But still, I have spiritual needs to be satisfied, thus these wishes. I pray that these wishes will not end in the blog, but may it be my staircase in understanding what I have in life.

With this, I end my 3 wishes. Thanks to all who greeted me in advance, and to all in the future.



Monday, August 04, 2008

The Tranquil Flow of LIFE... (The Birthday Essay 2008)

It’s only ten days before I turn 18. And with that, I have the joy to share with you the things that made my life complete for this year. Like a bottle floating through the endless path of the Ocean, my life,to put it in writing, had gone through the tranquil flow and the diverse waves, with the people, places and events that shaped up my personality in the seventeenth year of what turned out to be my life.


Walking with the brothers took another milestone for my life this year, especially now that we entered the first step of the Baptismal rite this year. It was a blessing for me, because of the realities that I entered this year, from the Baptismal Scrutiny, to the Pilgrimage for the Youth in Iloilo. These were realities that I didn’t understood at first, but I carefully entered and appreciated. I never realized that I will pass through this life with the understanding that goes like this… God accepts us, even though we undergo a lot of difficulties and obstacles. He loves us, and accepts us as we are. When the world rejects us, He is still there for us. And this reality I learned through the Way.

Serving at the Altar was a real challenge for me. It was a hard task now, doing the things that I never did before. But although I think of myself as a “superserver” at times, I still fell that there is this force that is shaking me up, and facing the reality to me, that I’m part of a blessed team. Sometimes, I fail to do the sorts, but there are also times that I feel that it is God helping me to serve at His holy Altar. And that I will never forget, especially now that I marked four years of service.

As the Fraters enter this year of grace in blessings, I will never say that there were no misunderstandings. It was as if God had let us entered these circumstances to show us how we love and understand each other as brothers in the Lord. With the inspiration of the White-robed Army, we still go on proclaiming our battle cry, and showing the world that everybody–simply everybody–can be holy.

Responsibilities. That would be my realization for this year as a lay. As I pass through this year, I still get that energy and the vigor from God who gives me life from sunrise to sunset. On myself, I would say that these responsibilities would be a vain train. But, with the Lord, I would say that these chores are a blessing for me and a help to others. Although I fail at times, He is still there, helping me.

A Future Teacher. This is that something that’s behind my college studies. This is the reason why I go to school. In this time that I’m entering my second year of studies, I have learned many things, especially the realization that there are people that will make you realize who you are, and who you will be in the near future. As you go on, you are equipped with more responsibilities, more challenges, and more acceptances. And I know that it will run for the next two years. Who knows?

This year has been a testimony of how my family entered a very great deal of ups and downs. I may say that this was the year where I get to know my family more; of how they are very loving, despite the lapses. Well, except for the Holy Family of Nazareth, and for other holy families around, there will never be a perfect family if all its members are not loving, gracious, God-fearing, and cooperative with each other. Inspite of that, I am still proud of my family, of who they are, and I know that beyond everybody, and aside from the Omnipotent One, they are still the ones who accept me as I am.

I will never pass this flow without God who is still there with every step of the way; with the help of everybody around me. I owe the greater thanks to Him, and to them, because without them, I may be somewhere so dark, so immense, so misunderstood.

Well, enough of that. Let's go on...


This year was also a witness to my frailty, of how I continuously fail to do things that must be done; of how I continuously fall into sin, eventhough I didn't like it to happen; of how people misunderstood me, and how I misunderstand them in return; of how I lived in pride, lust, and jealousy, added with a pinch of gluttony and a teaspoon of anger, plus the other two that I do not know.

Eventhough I pursue to live in Holiness, I still have lapses. After 18 years, I have come to understand this reality: I am a sinner in nature, and nobody cannot take it away from me, except God and myself. I sin by all means, and I sin everytime I please to do so. But despite that, I thank the Lord because He'd let me enter the way of Humility, and Conversion. I always ask myself that if God did not let me enter this way, where would I be right now as I write this BE?

And so, I am drawing near to the 17th waterfall, knowing that when I fall, I will enter the 18th river, the 18th ocean of my life. It's simply like that. It would still be a immense ocean, full of flows and waves alike. But who knows what will happen beyond this essay? One thing is for sure: wherever the flow will take me, whatever the texture of the waves will be like, God is still there. It's still the ocean, the ocean of my Life, but with a greater reality. The ocean shaped me to be who I am now, and God is by my side to guide me.

In the end, my cry, as with the former Birthday Essays of this nature, is still that cry full of trust and gratitude:




01 August 2008


Friday, August 01, 2008

the BE Primer...

After this post, I will present to you the Birthday Essay and the three wishes for the year 2008. Perhaps, you might be asking, where did the stupid idea came from, and from what corner of my mind did the wishes appeared. With that light, I will present to you a very brief primer before the presentation of my "post of the year". Here it goes...


It was like a thunder that struck my little mind when I was in fouth year in High School. It was a very nice day of July 29, 2005, and the classroom's atmosphere was very cold, thanks to the air conditioner. I had a vary large notebook in my armchair. The teacher was discussing something. I had something in mind. My 15th birthday is weeks to go, why shouldn't I do something to summarize what my year had been for me... and so, the Birthday Essay was born. I wrote in in a large notebook, entitled "Birthday Essay..." In it, the reader can see my achievements and failures, my joys and sorrows. One can also see in it how the personalities around me helped me to be me during the past year. Unfortunately, the notebook was lost, and with it, the first B.E.
With the birth of the first striker's site in Xanga, I had the idea of writing another B.E. for my 16th birthday, entitled "the 31st of July." It has a new feature: of connecting my life to something so related to closing ang opening. That year, I connected my life to the sunrise/sunset. Last year, it was patterned after a book.
Everytime I write a B.E., I realize how God worked wonders to me after the past year. It gives me new strength and vigor to continue my life, and to continue witnessing How God helps somebody depsite his failures and lapses; and with that, it gives me the inspiration and excitement to write a new essay for the following year. It simply goes like that.


As the Birthday Essay started in paper, the Three Wishes started in Friendster.
It started as a bulletin post in Friendster (Aug. 15, 2005... I am good in dates!), with the intention of showing the world how I wanted to be in the coming year after A19. It is patterned after Aladdin who wished three times to a Genie in a magic lamp. Well, it's like a mortal sin looking at myself like Aladdin, but it's not after him, it's after the wishes.
You know what, guys? I simply realize that these wishes are being granted in the course of the year. It's like "wishes do come true."
The third wish, as a tradition ek-ek, was kept a secret. It's not because there was no wish at all, but because I wanted it to be between myself and God. It was broken last year, when I presented a third wish; but having a fourth wish as a secret, the chain was still considered now broken.


When I put it in a summary, these two posts make up my birthday traditions. It is simply a mirror, of how God does wonders to everybody, and how a mortal lives with needs and wishes in hand. it's like a failure now if I do not create a Birthday Essay and its Three Wishes. It simple goes like that.

With that, I present to you...

THE TRANQUIL FLOW OF LIFE (the Birthday Essay 2008)

It's coming na... watch out for it!!!


Related Posts...
Bithday Essay:
1. The 31st of July (BE 2006) - http://litranista001.multiply.com/journal/item/105/the_31st_of_july..._the_birthday_essay_2006
2. The 29th of July (BE 2007) - http://litranista001.multiply.com/journal/item/43/The_29th_of_July..._Birthday_Essay_2007

Three Wishes:
1. The Wishes... (2006) - http://litranista001.multiply.com/journal/item/106/the_wishes..._a_sequel_to_the_birthday_essay
2. Three Wishes... (2007) - http://litranista001.multiply.com/journal/item/44/Three_Wishes_2007...

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

chubby fact...

One time, as I was chatting with a friend, she told me, "alam mo bitoy, tumaba ka konti..."

I was astounded, and thoughts ran into my mind... ako? problemado? tataba? alam ko, pumapayat ako dahil sa ganito at ganoon. Pero AKO? TATABA? NO WAY!!! $#%^%^^%!!! But I thought, that was the result after God took care of me when I was in Iloilo.

I don't know what happened. I know, I ate, rested, and did a bunch of recreation, not to forget the quality time spent with God, talking to Him, and being one in Him.

You know, it wasn't hard for me to adjust by the time the plane landed, but it was hard for me to adjust back to my normal situation... until now. Activities continue to haunt my system, yes. Like it seems to tell me, I will never leave you, I will haunt you as long as you live!!!

Why am I telling these?
It's because I want to tell everybody How I saw God in Iloilo!!! I mean... look!!! I will not be chubby if I was not relaxed, if not I did not became happy with where God put me. A month passed, many failures came by, I became busy, and still, the evidence shows...

Another something that contributed to my "chubbiness" is this: after we arrived from Iloilo, the first thing I did was to look at the bright side of my life... eventhough I can't never say that I forgot the negative side... I say that although I fell down, and played dead, I still managed to stand up, and continue smiling.

if you're happy with what you're doing, if you continue to look for the positives, if at every point of your life, you see the goodness of God, and if you continue to smile... then, you will carefully see the evidence... (What is the evidence? look in the mirror.)


Monday, January 07, 2008

(this is my first post in a very large font... and it has a very large reason...)

Are you full of problems? Is life being unfair to you? Do you feel depressed? Like Sharon Cuneta, do you feel like pasan ko ang daigdig?

Do you want to see the Light? Do you want to see God in your life?



Where: Santa Cruz Parish; Tanza, Navotas City

When: every Tuesday and Thursday, 7:30 PM, starting January 15, 2008

Who: YOU, 14 years old and above, any status in Life (single, married, widow or widower)

What to bring: you, yourself, and your ears.

if it touched many lives (including mine), it will certainly touch the star of the show... YOU!!!


- Rev. Fr. Elpidio A. Erlano, Jr.

Parish Priest

(gogo note:I did this post for the propagation of the Evangelization of the Neo Catechumenate here in Navotas, and I hope that this invitation will be seen by all my contacts here in Multiply... and by others that had just passed by my page. Through this post, may God touch those lives who will be listening to His Word.
May God be with you!!! Peace!!!)

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

Blessed Ivan goes to Navotas... and the Flame rises.

pic taken from the Christmas Party of the CCS in Quezon City; December 27, 2007

It was truly a remarkable happening for the Confraternity of Catholic Saints in the Diocese of Kalookan!!! And it is all due to Blessed Ivan Merz, one of the inspirations of CCS to go on and live in holiness.

Last April, the Director visited the House of Blessed Ivan in the City of Navotas, the Parish of Santa Cruz in Tanza. They came to see and bless the beginning of the Propagation of the Life of this Blessed on the Fishing Capital of the Philippines. The flame is getting kindled at that time.

Just last week, during the Christmas party of CCS in Quezon City, the Director and the Secretary-General presented the Pilgrim Image of Blessed Ivan Merz for the use of the CCS-Kalookan wing. With that are brochures and other paraphernalia for the use of the said wing. It was a very happy occasion for us.

Just this week, we received the positive response of the NavoteƱos to the Propagation! And it is indeed a blessing for us especially for this New Year. It is indeed giving us the motivation, and the strength we need to pursue and go on!

In behalf of my companion here in Navotas City, Fra. Adrian Millena, ccs, I would like to owe this great endeavour to God, to the Blessed Virgin Mary, and Most of all, to the Star of the show, Blessed Ivan Merz, for never letting us down during all this time.

We pray that the Lord, through Blessed Ivan Merz, continue to shower his blessings and love to his people, so that we may live a life of Humility, Simplicity, and Praise!!!


Malabon City; January 02, 2008

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Other posts for 2007

If you want to know what to happened to my life for 2007. I invite you to visit my other site:
In it, you will see what happened to the striker for the year 2007.

Thanks, and a Blessed New Year to all!!!

New Year... New Me... New Everybody!!!

First words...


365 days had passed, 366 days on the way (2008 is a leap year... Happy Birthday for those who are born on Feb. 29!!!).

I'm sure some of us are still groggy and sleepy due to the revelry last night... although it was noted that the firecracker tilt reduced gradually. Financial Problem perhaps, or due to the lesson learned by some: Don't play with Firecrackers; they are dangerous. Others because of the reunions, others simply because wala lang.

Many of us (including me) had been involved in creating the most popular list ever created... the list containing our New Year's Resolutions. For others, a few are accomplished as they go on through the year, but others simply create without the intention of doing it. There's no problem with doing this "most prized" list. But let me ask you... Do you include in your list the intention to be a better christian? To be a witness of Christ in today's world? I hope you do.

For some, New year passed as another ordinary day. Why so? because they lost all hope. They keep asking... "Why was my life so broken? I don't have any reason anymore to celebrate..." Well, we can't blame them, but as for us, did we tried our best to help them, and to give them the hope they needed to go on? Let's pray for them that they may see the hope they wanted with the company of family, friends and most of all, God.

This day, we celebrate the Solemnity of Mary, Mother of God. The Church gave us the example of a Mother, who selflessly gave her life for the salvation of the whole race. From her Fiat, to the Pieta, to the Assumption and Coronation, we saw how this woman followed the footsteps of her son. This day, This Church also reminds us that behind our biological mothers there is also a mother there in heaven guiding all of us. With that, I invite all to continuously recourse to our Mother, after all, she cares for us, she will never let us down.

It was a very colorful year for all of us, especially for me. (Cheers to that!!!) The world saw how we walked through the way of life, fell, and stood up and continued walking. Now, another year is ahead of us. Let us never forget that we never walk alone in this path of life. We have a lot of company, be they good or bad. Above all, there is the Triune God. There is the Virgin Mary. Look, brothers!!! We are never alone. So why look on another negative year? Look on the positive year!!! We will see the Goodness of God in our lives. And we can say... "Lord, you are so good to me!!! How good!!! How sweet!!!"

As we wake up to a brand new day, a brand new year, we see a brand new future ahead of us; as we see the sun rise on the road of our lives, we have this spirit of hope that there will be a new something waiting out there. Just wait. It's not yet the end of the rainbow... It's just the start.

Live a Life!!! Offer a Life!!! Share!!! Love!!! Be not afraid...

Fix your eyes on Jesus!!! (My Mission Statement for 2008)


Navotas City; January 01, 2008