Dear 2009.....

DEAR 2009,

Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan ang sulat na ito, at kung paanong idadaan sa panulat ang aking mga saloobin, matapos ang tatlongdaan at animnapu't limang araw na nakasama kita, nakapiling, at nakaniigan.

Marami kang naidulot sa aking murang kaisipan, sa aking mahinang pangangatawan, sa aking pusong mamon. Marami kang itinuro sa akin: ang maging matatag sa gitna ng pagsubok, ang tumakbo sa oras na kailangang tumakbo, ang magising sa realidad na hindi na ako isang bata-batuta at kailangang ko nang harapin ang mga bagay na inihanda para sa akin,... kahit na hindi pa ako ganoong ka-preparado.

Dinala mo ako sa mundo ng responsibilidad at kamangmangan, sa kaharian ng pagkamakasarili at kababaang-loob, sa dagat ng mga problema at tagumpay, sa basurahan at sa restaurant (kahit na hindi ko alam kung ano ang talagang kahulugan nun...?)

Binigyan mo ako ng mga makakasama, mga kaibigan at kaaway, mga tapat at taksil, mga taong tanggap ako at mga taong usisero na walang magawa kundi saktan ako nang patalikod.

Lahat ng iyun, upang ituro sa akin ang tatlong bagay...

Na mahina ako kung mag-isa; na hindi ko kakayanin ang lahat nang mag-isa; at mali ang sinasabing kaya ko kung sa totoo lang ay hindi pala.

Sa lahat na ito, taong 2009, ay isa lang ang aking masasabi...

SALAMAT!

Salamat sa lahat ng mga karanasang ibinigay mo sa akin, mabuti man o masama, nakakatawa man o nakakahiya. Salamat sa pagbibigay ng pagkakataong ipakilala ang sarili sa mundong balukyot, na kung minsan ay mapunahin sa lahat ng aking mga ginagawa. Salamat, sapagkat minsan sa buhay ko, nagkaroon ako ng puwang upang isigaw ang aking kakayahan, na kaya ko, na kakayanin ko, na nagmamahal ako, na ako'y umiiyak rin tulad ng mga panahong ako'y tumatawa, na kailangan ko ring umalma kung kailangan. Salamat rin dahil minsan sa buhay ko, natuto akong tumayo sa sarili kong paa, at binigyan mo ako ng dahilan upang gawin ito, lalo na sa mga panahong walang kayang gumawa at tanging ako lamang ang kayang gumawa ng bagay na iyon.

Sa lahat ng ito at sa marami pa, SALAMAT 2009, SALAMAT! Iingatan ko sa aking alaala ang lahat ng ating mga napagsamahan.

At ngayong paparating na ang iyong kapatid na si 2010, dalangin ko na mas lalo pa akong magkaroon ng pagkakataon na patunayang minsan sa buhay ko, ay nakayanan kong sumigaw, na ipahayag ang aking kakayahan at saloobin, at minsan sa buhay ng mundo, may Bitoy na umiral, at nagsabi sa mundo na...

"YARI KA!!!!!"
"Holiness is very Possible...."
"Magaling! Ituloy mo lang yan..."
"Taray mo!!!"
at
"Salamat sa Diyos!"

Hanggang sa dakong paroon! Muli, Salamat!

Ang iyong nagmamahal na ka-lakbay,...

BiTOY :)

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The LORD bless you and keep you!
The LORD let his face shine upon
you, and be gracious to you!
The LORD look upon you kindly and
give you peace!

Numbers 6,24-26

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A Very different Christmas for this year,....... how different?

Christmas for this year is very far different from the other Christmases I have encountered in the past. in one way or another, I can really say that this Christmas is way too tiring, yet exciting.

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This was the first in Nine years that I completed the coveted tradition of Misa de Gallo. sacrificing some three or four hours just to stay awake to hear Mass, it was really a challenge for me. it really took the sleep off of me but still, it's worth it! To add to that was the Mass of the Bishop on the 22nd of December, just a day away from his Sacerdotal Anniversary (which I came to know only two days after the said Mass.), and 8 months away from his Silver Jubilee as Bishop (on August next year.)

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Another was the Misa de Aguinaldo last Thursday, when I received one of Fr. Junjun's gifts to the people when he asked some trivia questions during the Homily. Tagged as the only one in the mob who knows the answer, I had the chance of having a Rosary blessed by our Local Ordinary. The question is When does Christmas Season end? Some people answer January 6, some Three Kings, others January 7 or another date. I was the only one (with the courage I've got from the Priest Concelebrant, Fr. Tony Ranada, SVD) who answered rightly: The Feast of the Baptism of the Lord.

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Christmas with Diosdado was a adventurous one. "Father-Son Bonding", kung baga. With the exception of some incidents when I was forced to be with other servers - or worse, alone - , I was joined with JR on most of my endeavors these past days. He's abusive, yes, hingi nang hingi, parang magnanakaw, lagi akong kinukuhanan, still, his company is the best. Yung mamasko kahit sa hindi namin ninong at ninang, parang madaling nakahugot ng lakas dahil may kasama akong bata. hehehe.... Kidding aside, this shows me the reality that I'm no longer 9 years old, that I cannot already do the things I've been doing when I was younger, so much younger than today.

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Wherever I go, there are still skeptics and critics,trying to pull me down and tear me to pieces. Whatever I do to please the community, di pa rin sila nawawala. It hurts so much to see people trying to crush my weak self. I have nothing to say to them but... Pare-pareho tayong pagod, nahirapan at nakulangan. PLEASE LANG! Let's make the New Year right. Let's stop all the fuzz.
And to all asking pamasko from me, Ubos na ang laman ng bulsa ko. Next year na lang!!!!!! hehehehe.... :p

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As I end this post, I can say that Christmas was really different for me, a mix of everything.
What made me happy this year?

Not the How, but the Why.

A Blessed Christmas everyone!


Another post coming up, sometime this week... For the New Year blues.

JoEzeMa,ccs :)