Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Other posts for 2007
www.litranista001.multiply.com
In it, you will see what happened to the striker for the year 2007.
Thanks, and a Blessed New Year to all!!!
New Year... New Me... New Everybody!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! WELCOME TO THE YEAR OF OUR LORD 2008!!!
365 days had passed, 366 days on the way (2008 is a leap year... Happy Birthday for those who are born on Feb. 29!!!).
I'm sure some of us are still groggy and sleepy due to the revelry last night... although it was noted that the firecracker tilt reduced gradually. Financial Problem perhaps, or due to the lesson learned by some: Don't play with Firecrackers; they are dangerous. Others because of the reunions, others simply because wala lang.
Many of us (including me) had been involved in creating the most popular list ever created... the list containing our New Year's Resolutions. For others, a few are accomplished as they go on through the year, but others simply create without the intention of doing it. There's no problem with doing this "most prized" list. But let me ask you... Do you include in your list the intention to be a better christian? To be a witness of Christ in today's world? I hope you do.
For some, New year passed as another ordinary day. Why so? because they lost all hope. They keep asking... "Why was my life so broken? I don't have any reason anymore to celebrate..." Well, we can't blame them, but as for us, did we tried our best to help them, and to give them the hope they needed to go on? Let's pray for them that they may see the hope they wanted with the company of family, friends and most of all, God.
This day, we celebrate the Solemnity of Mary, Mother of God. The Church gave us the example of a Mother, who selflessly gave her life for the salvation of the whole race. From her Fiat, to the Pieta, to the Assumption and Coronation, we saw how this woman followed the footsteps of her son. This day, This Church also reminds us that behind our biological mothers there is also a mother there in heaven guiding all of us. With that, I invite all to continuously recourse to our Mother, after all, she cares for us, she will never let us down.
It was a very colorful year for all of us, especially for me. (Cheers to that!!!) The world saw how we walked through the way of life, fell, and stood up and continued walking. Now, another year is ahead of us. Let us never forget that we never walk alone in this path of life. We have a lot of company, be they good or bad. Above all, there is the Triune God. There is the Virgin Mary. Look, brothers!!! We are never alone. So why look on another negative year? Look on the positive year!!! We will see the Goodness of God in our lives. And we can say... "Lord, you are so good to me!!! How good!!! How sweet!!!"
As we wake up to a brand new day, a brand new year, we see a brand new future ahead of us; as we see the sun rise on the road of our lives, we have this spirit of hope that there will be a new something waiting out there. Just wait. It's not yet the end of the rainbow... It's just the start.
Live a Life!!! Offer a Life!!! Share!!! Love!!! Be not afraid...
Fix your eyes on Jesus!!! (My Mission Statement for 2008)
HAPPY 2008, BROTHERS!!! MAY GOD BLESS US ALWAYS!!!
Navotas City; January 01, 2008
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Sunday, July 29, 2007
The 29th of July (Birthday Essay 2007)

and as it closes, another one opens.
(I shall open this yearly essay with this sentence. A book, that's what it became, full of stories, of quests, of the history of somebody. I'm happy to share it all with you as the 19th of August comes. Please, read on...)
Life, as it turned out, became hell for me. but beneath it, there's still the feeling of comfort and peace, the feeling of heaven.
These experiences that turned out to be a part of my history, of my story, of the legacy that was mine. These, and others, are the ones I will never forget.
Heaven...
As I was walking with the second community of the Neo Catechumenal Way, there were these instances that I felt that there was-and is-another family to guide and watch over me. I carefully coped up with my community, and they were very... Common in everything. I'm happy to be a part of this community where I saw myself this past year as a sinner begging God's Grace.
Being a part of the Confraternity of the Catholic Saints was also a big thing for me. eventhough there were times of miscommunication, there were still times when I felt the presence of God and His Holy Army of the Saints rushing through us.
As a Server at the Altar, God took me to very high heights. Although times come when I come to experience difficulties in my office as Secretary, I still thank the Lord for always being there for me, and never letting me go. During the past 3 years, He was there when I need Him. And until now, I still feel his Presence.
As a simple parishioner, I know that there are people that are wondering where do I get such energy. Their prayers are my strength. I get the vigor from them, knowing that my mission is still not over, because God is still giving them to me.
Being a student, I am never sorry for being a part of an institution as the City of Malabon University, and the reason for that is because I felt the realness of study and education despite the trials, the tests, and the projects. The classmates, buddies, and friends that are there in times of joking and in times of study, and not to forget the teachers, professors, and Army Personnel that are there to guide, not only me, but the entire institution.
As a son, I felt the continued love of my parents and siblings. Eventhough at times, they are going around a fight or something, I'm still proud that I have the family that I have right now. I will always tell the world that I have the very best family in this wide universe.
In other words, I felt the heaven this year, not because I had the things to be proud of, nor because I have all the things that a normal person doesn't, but because I felt the Presence of the Divine One over, and under me, in my front and back, in my whole person. And mostly, he'd let me live until this very day.
Hell...
As a frail sinner, a boastful person, I am still falling. There were still these people who never, if not seldom, believe in me. I don't want them to believe in me at all, I just wanted to do things for their sake.
There are still some instances that I am falling into sin and death. I am falling into an anger blast. I am leaving things. I am still a sinner.I still don't accept things. I refuse to do things.
And for that part, I am still asking God's grace for me to wake up and stand amidst the temptations, the sins, and the deaths. I am also asking His grace over these people whom I killed using my tongue, my hands, and my personality. I am asking forgiveness for everything I did, and also I am ready to accept their sorry's... if there will be.
And so, the 16th volume of a book entitled "my life" is nearing to a close. I hope and pray as the 17th volume opens, I may open and read its pages with excitement, hoping that there will be a story in it that will take me to the hope that God Never forgets those who call and rely on Him.
IN ALL THINGS, MAY GOD'S WILL BE DONE!!!
SA LAHAT NG BAGAY, ANG KALOOBAN NAWA NG DIYOS ANG MANGYARI!!!
AMEN!!!
July 29, 2007
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Thursday, June 07, 2007
The Blessed Trinity and the Blessed Sacrament... (Multiply - June 06, 2007)

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"I have yet many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now.
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When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth; for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come.
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He will glorify me, for he will take what is mine and declare it to you.
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All that the Father has is mine; therefore I said that he will take what is mine and declare it to you.
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Solemnity of the Body and Blood of Jesus Christ (Corpus et Sanguinis Christi)
June 10, 2007
Luke 9, 11-17
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When the crowds learned it, they followed him; and he welcomed them and spoke to them of the kingdom of God, and cured those who had need of healing.
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Now the day began to wear away; and the twelve came and said to him, "Send the crowd away, to go into the villages and country round about, to lodge and get provisions; for we are here in a lonely place."
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But he said to them, "You give them something to eat." They said, "We have no more than five loaves and two fish -- unless we are to go and buy food for all these people."
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For there were about five thousand men. And he said to his disciples, "Make them sit down in companies, about fifty each."
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And they did so, and made them all sit down.
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And taking the five loaves and the two fish he looked up to heaven, and blessed and broke them, and gave them to the disciples to set before the crowd.
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And all ate and were satisfied. And they took up what was left over, twelve baskets of broken pieces.
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Many things occured during these past that is telling us, until today, of the great wonders of the Blessed Trinity and the Body and Blood of Christ. Actually, it's been days away since the Solemnity of the Holy Trinity and days before the Corpus Christi, But it's a Tradition that when a Solemnity is being celebrated, the Striker must give a short reflection related to the latter. So, here it goes...
Well, The Holy Trinity goes first.
Saint Augustine says of it. "I tried the best of my knowledge to describe the great wonder of the Holy Trinity, and yet, I can't."
The Holy Trinity is beyond any person's intelligence.
One thing. We can know well of the Mystery of the Most Holy, Triune God, only if we know and understand the meaning of the four-letter word: L-O-V-E!!! The Father loved his Son, and the Son loved his Father, and the fruit of this fraternal love is the Holy Spirit. If we know how to love our neighbor, we don't need a religion guru to explain to us this great mystery. Beacuse deep within our hearts, we know it all.
Actually, I'm still trying to apply it. so, I still do not know what is the exact meaning of the Triune Majesty. Who am I to tell you about this wonder after all (while I was writing this part of the blog, I heard a thunderclap outside. Is God affirming me?)?
Now of the Body and Blood of Christ. (God help me!!!)
After a series of miracles, and from its humble beginnings (thunderclap again...), the Church now firmly believes that Christ is TRULY present in the form of bread and wine.
On the Gospel for this year, Luke is telling us of the Feeding of the... is it 400 or 500? well, the thing we know is that the people ate and were satisfied. Just the same as of what we are celebrating in our present time. On the Eucharist, Christ is being broken, and shared with us all. we eat, and we are satisfied,... I wish. Christ is enough for all of us. Is not the commisioning words of that night enough for all of us? And after all, as Paul proclaims, We proclaim the Death and Resurrection of Christ through this Divine Sacrament, while we anticipate His coming again. Aren't we feeling enough with this? Christ, giving himself to us to eat? Giving His life for all of us to share. Isn't that enough?
"As Christ is the Head, we are the members."
With that faith in hand, we can still assure ourselves that Christ still lives in our midst. He never leaves us day and night. And he still makes sure that we are never away from Him, as long as there is a Tabernacle in a nearby Church with a vigil light on it, we can still assure that CHRIST IS STILL THERE..
God, through these times you still share your love with each and everyone of us. You still reveal to us your Holy and Divine mystery, and you still give your son to be our food and drink. Grant that, through this, our faith will never fade, and we may still put our trust in you. Grant this through our Lord Jesus Christ, your son, who lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, forever and ever. AMEN...
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Monday, May 21, 2007
musica 101...
first post: Tatsulok by Bamboo
The song speaks for itself, about the problems of the new generation, and the quest for the true and real freedom.
Better listen to this song that is being rendered by Bamboo. I dedicate this song for Kuya Junelie, our assistant coordinator at the Altar Servers at our Parish.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Blessed Ivan Merz: living a life of sacrifice for the youth

Ivan Merz did so much for the Church in Croatia and the sanctity of his life is so significant and attractive that he is the first layman in the 13-century history of Christianity of the Croats for whom the local Church has initiated proceedings to announce him blessed and saint.
We believe that the beauty of Ivan’s soul will attract you too: that you will also be inspired by the light of God’s mercy that was so obvious and present in Ivan’s life to such an extent that the former Archbishop of Zagreb, Cardinal Franjo Kuharic, justly called him:
a masterpiece of the Holy Spirit
Childhood and adolescence
Our Ivan was born on December 16th, 1896 in Banja Luka where his father was the chief of the railroad station. His father was also a military officer in the then Austro-Hungarian Monarchy. As an only child Ivan was from the beginning surrounded with great parental love. His father’s high status in society and secure financial position enabled Ivan to have a carefree and happy childhood. Ivan’s parents gave him a good middle-class upbringing. However, he was brought up without a Christian foundation.
Ivan grew up within a liberal atmosphere where the values of this world were rated highly while Christianity was considered a mere tradition, formality, and a sign of sociological belonging which did not interfere excessively with the everyday life of the upper middle-class Banja Luka society to which the Merz family belonged. Ivan received his basic religious knowledge in the religious classes which were at that time a part of the regular school curriculum for all grades until graduation.
As Ivan himself said, it was neither his family upbringing nor the official religious instructions in school that were responsible for his religious orientation but rather the example and influence of his secondary school teacher, Dr. Ljubomir Marakovic, a model Catholic layman. Ivan’s great interest in literature and art found a receptive ear with professor Marakovic who was his Croatian language teacher. Later during the higher grades of grammar school, Ivan also found a friend in professor Marakovic who directed him slowly, through art and literature, to moral and religious values. Later when mature, Ivan expressed the importance for him of this frinedship with professor Marakovic:
A Catholic layman has saved me for Eternity
The song of youth
There are few people even among the saints and those chosen by God whose spiritual development and ascent to God can be as closely followed as that of Ivan Merz. Ivan described each flicker of his young heart, each step of his ascent to the values of life and finally to God in his extensive diary which he started to write at 17. He was stimulated to write by his professor, Dr. Marakovic. Ivan continued to write his diary for eight years until his maturity. This precious document filled twenty notebooks and it's 800 pages when copied.
What was Ivan writing in his diary? He wrote about all that he experienced within him and around him. We can follow his day to day growth and development and how he struggled through his youthful crises, doubts and his search for a religious and moral sense. We can watch his preoccupation with serious life problems of honesty and righteousness and how he solved his problems with life and love in his Faustian search for truth. We sympathize with the tragic end of his youthful love, full of idealism. He was led by God’s tangible grace and little by little he found his way. His life principles crystallized and Ivan started to draw nearer at a quickened pace to the truths concerning the values of life. We see that God was filling more and more Ivan’s soul and his young heart. Later he would dedicate and present them completely to God amidst his zeal as he advanced towards maturity.
Within the pages of Ivan’s diary many young men recognized themselves. They found so much in common with him that they were given the courage and confidence not to become tired with their search for Truth, Goodness, Beauty and Love, which Ivan finally found realized in Jesus Christ.
Entering the world
At the army academy in Novo Mesto
Ivan wished to study art and literature. His parents, however did not agree with him and for their sake Ivan enrolled in the Military Academy at Wiener Neustadt. He endured only three months there, since he had neither the desire nor the talent necessary for a military career.
His short stay at the Academy was not worthless. Ivan had the opportunity to become acquainted with the reverse side of life, the moral poverty of people. His diary of those days is abundant with descriptions criticizing the vicinity in which he had to live, against which Ivan’s inborn correctly disposed nature complained spontaneously. One thing is particualrly evident: the world of faith, as opposed to the moral evil surrounding Ivan, attracted him more and more. Religious thoughts occupied an increasing space in his soul.
In the World War I
In February 1916 Ivan joined the Army. For eight weeks he was becoming used to military life at Lebring near Graz. From there he was taken to Graz and Slovenska Bistrica for further military training. After passing an officer’s exam he went to Seewiesen to attend a skiing course. As a cadet-aspirant in January 1917 he left with a group of soldiers, whom he had to lead for Bozen and Arsier. His mission was to take the group to the positions then to lead them back. He participated in all the battles on the Italian front, staying there till the end of the war.
How Ivan experienced the war and its horrors can ba best seen from his diary, which he succeeded in writing even on the front. However, one thing is clear: by watching “death in the eyes”, by being exposed to sufferings of all kinds, Ivan’s attitude of life had deepened. Doubts and hesitations vanished in Ivan’s encounters with suffering and death. Christian faith appeared to Ivan as the sole value that conquers all evil which he saw around and experienced. Christian faith was, from then on, to take the first place in Ivan’s soul, while the world of art remained in the background. Ivan’s great desire for holiness and Christian perfection continued to be present. Toward the end of the war Ivan wrote his father the following significant words:
I am grateful to God for participating in the war, because war taught me many things that I would not have conceived otherwise. I strongly wish to be free again and to arrange my life according to what I have realized is right.
Ivan’s entries into the diary are abundant with condemnations of the war. It cannot be seen anywhere, neither in his diary nor in his correspondence that he personally ever used arms, or that he sinned against the 5th Commandment. The war period is considered as one of the most interesting parts of his diary.
Study
A flame for endless heights
The war was over. Ivan continued his studies in Vienna. His parents finally gave their consent and Ivan could study what he had wished for a long time: literature, Roman and German languages. His diary of this period shows no further traces of spiritual conflicts and crises. The war had a positive effect on the development of Ivan’s personality. Ivan was now firmly convinced in the truthfulness of faith and his soul was now ascending to God’s heights more and more. His interest for liturgy began during this period, after he had taken part in liturgical spiritual excercises. He also joined the Croatian Catholic students, members of the association called “Croatia”. He became one of the most active members, performing the duties of secretary. He himself gave lectures and talked with his colleagues about the best way for the preparation of apostolic work later in their home country. During one of the meetings he pronounced the well known words:
The base of our life must be our revival in Christ, all the rest will follow in line by itself.
In Paris
With the help of Fr. M. Vanino, SJ, a scholarship was granted to Ivan from France and in the fall of 1920 Ivan, together with two of his colleagues left for Paris where he pursued his studies at the Sorbonne and at the Catholic Institute for two years. Besides studies, Ivan collected material for the dissertation of his Phd which he would receive later in Zagreb. He took an active interest in Catholic life in France, keeping in contact with many Catholic intellectuals and converts. His two-year stay in Paris was a great cultural and spiritual enrichment for Ivan.
Ivan’s parents found out about his intense religious life and were not pleased. Thus a very interesting correspondence, already published in Ivan’s biographies, between Ivan and his mother developed. His mother wanted her son to live just like others, and in his letters Ivan explained in detail and justified his views, even wanting to encourage his parents to deepen their religious life. He warned them that life was short, that it was only a preparation for eternity and that accordingly, we have to do our best in preparing ourselves for eternal life. Among other things he sent his mother the following well known statement:
You know that university life in Vienna, the war, my studies and finally Lourdes have convinced me completely of the truthfulness of the Catholic faith and that my whole life, therefore, evolves around Christ the Lord.
In another letter Ivan wrote:
Catholic faith is my life vocation and it must be the same for each man, with no exceptions.
Only after Ivan's death Ivan’s parents realized fully what he had tried to make them during his lifetime: to become practical Catholic.
Sanctity of a life
Ivan finished his literary studies in Paris and came to Zagreb in the summer of 1922. In the meantime his parents had moved to Zagreb. The same fall he received employment as a teacher of French and German languagers at the Grammar School of the Diocese that was located in the building at Kaptol, where the Faculty of Theology was located for a long time later. This was to be his profession until the end of his life.
The following year, in 1923 he received his Phd at the Faculty of Philosophy of the Zagreb University with his dissertation about the influence of liturgy on French writers. He lived with his parents in the house called “Starcevicev dom” near the railroad station. Ivan lived there for 6 years. During this short period of time he did a great deal: he ploughed a deep furrow into the field of Croatian Catholicism. Like a meteor he flashed up in the sky of the Church in Croatia. But his light has not died out: it will shine permanently as a leading-star showing men a secure orientation in life.
From Paris, Ivan came with a clear sense that “Chatolic faith was his life vocation”, as he had written to his mother before departure. He came knowing what he wanted, with a whole spiritual program he wished to realize. Marica Stankovic, Ivan’s close associate in his work with young people, puts it best:
A new man appeared on our horizon. A man came for whom faith was not tradition but life, and who did not consider Catholic activities as a kind of sport but as a battle for immortal souls.
All Ivan’s free time was devoted to the education of Croatian youth in Catholic organizations, particularly in the Association of Croatian Eagles. Many of Ivan’s colleagues and active Catholics were also making sacrifices to the maximum in the field of the Catholic apostolate.
However, the appearance of Ivan Merz surpassed them all; he became a spiritual leader to all, even to his closest associates, a leader who introduced a new way of thinking, feeling and judging into contemporary Catholic public life.
Ivan in prayer
What was Ivan’s prayer life like in practice? The center of his relation to God was his daily Holy Mass and Holy Communion in the Basilica of the Sacred Heart. Even today there are people who remember Ivan going to the Jesuit church in Palmoticeva Street every morning at 6.30; they remember how Ivan prayed from his thick French-Latin Missale the Holy Mass, as he himself used to say. His ideal was to attend High Mass, conventual Mass that is celebrated the way contemplative orders celebrate it, but he very rarely had the opportunity to attend such Mass.
Ivan meditated for three quarters of an hour every day, as he stated in a survey. He particularly believed in the necessity of liturgic meditation on the text of the daily Mass each particular day. He himself meditated and recommended meditation to others.
The rosary was in his hands every day. He came to like it particularly after his visit to Lourdes. Ivan himself stated that it was after Lourdes that the rosary became his second best friend, his first best friend being the Eucharist. He used to pray the rosary while walking in the street, in various circumstances, even when it demanded considerable sacrifice like once in Rome when at two o’clock at night, after having seen his pilgrims to their lodgings, he found the energy to kneel down in front of his bed and pray. What he found in praying the rosary is evident from a piece of advice given to a girl:
When life is hard for you and when you meet with trouble, take the rosary of Our Lady and it will comfort you and give you strength to endure all in peace with a complete surrender to the Will of God.
One of Ivan’s close friends said:
Whoever found himself in church with Merz would feel, by watching him, the real presence of God. For he knelt in such complete humility, honour and with a heart that pointed to the presence of the holy, chaste, just, endless Deity in front of whom one must fall on knees offering one’s whole soul just like Ivan was doing.
Liturgy - the magic beauty
Liturgy occupied an extensive field of Ivan’s interest, it was his great and sacred “hobby”. Here we find ourselves confronted with one of the greatest paradoxes of Ivan’s life. In company with so many priests, monks and nuns Ivan, a young layman became one of the greatest promoters of liturgic revival in Croatia. What was it in liturgy that attracted and filled Ivan with so much enthusiasm that it completely occupied the interest of his spiritual world? The answer is found in his soul which longed to be united with God to a greater and greater extent, and this was achieved best through the official prayer of the Church, through liturgy.
In one of his articles Ivan gives three pieces of advice followed by a detailed development of the way liturgy leads to spiritual revival:
1. Read daily spiritual texts that would make liturgic texts more understandable.
2. Meditate daily on the basis of the Missal.
3. Receive Holy Communion at each mass attended.
The Eucharist – source of life
Ivan’s diary shows right from the beginning a special affection for the Sacrament of the Eucharist. He accepted unsceptically and without discussion the belief of the Church in the true presence of Christ in the Eucharist. As Ivan matured, the longing to take Holy Communion daily became more evident. He noted in his diary once: “Holy Communion is the source of life!” Upon his arrival in Zagreb Ivan organized his life in such a way that daily Holy Communion was part of his schedule. Even when travelling Ivan found the opportunity to receive Holy Communion.
“I spoke with the zeal I received from the most Holy Eucharist”, said Ivan after a lecture he had given at the Great Jamboree of Catholic Youth in Maribor in 1920.
His whole apostolate was inspired with this zeal, which was already evident to a great extent in the slogan Ivan gave to the organisation of the Eagles: “Sacrifice – Eucharist – Apostolate”. These three words contain a whole program realized first by Ivan and then followed by many others. Today these words are engraved in the marble panel on his grave.
These lines as well as many others of Ivan’s writings indicate the fire burning in Ivan’s heart whenever the question of the Eucharist arises; therefore it is not surprising that the flame has spread over so many young people and adults who contacted Ivan.
With Mary to Jesus
We know from Ivan’s diary that the Blessed Virgin Mary played quite a definite role in his life. He mentioned her already in the first part of his diary, directing sincere and touching prayers to her and calling on her to guard, protect and help him in life, to keep him from moral evil, and to preserve the purity of his heart. Little by little, his ideal of women found its complete fulfillment in Mary, in whom he found the concentration of all that is exalted. At the age of 19 Ivan already made a vow of chastity before marriage. Concerning this vow he made the following entry into his diary on 12 December 1915:
I made a vow of chastity before marriage to the Blessed Virgin the other day. Maybe it will last till I die.
It can be concluded that this happened on the feast of the Immaculate Conception on December 8th. Ivan was not wrong suspecting that the vow was for a whole lifetime. Eight years later he actually took a vow of eternal chastity also on the feast of the Immaculate Conception, thus devoting his whole being to the divine love through which he was to give himself away to so many of his brothers and sisters in faith.
A path to the eternity
A sacrifice of life for croatian youth
Ivan’s eyesight was bad since his childhood. Later teeth problems were added to it. Sickness constantly followed him, fettering the ardor he had for study and work. In the last year of his life he was seriously ill. He had an accute inflamation of the mandibular cavity and he had to undergo surgery. During the last few months of his life Ivan made a few significant entries into his diary which he had stopped writing regularly already during his studies in Paris. These last thoughts tell us a great deal about the state of his mind and of the mood he was in before departure from this world.
21st January 1928 – Let everything be in honour of the Most Sacred Heart of Jesus.
13th February 1928 – There is a great enough cross on us. I have an acute purulent inflamation of the mandibular cavity. Today they extracted another tooth. Mother is in great pain. However, I see that she prays quite gladly. Last night we took something like a vow that we will, whenever circumstances permit, always pray the rosary together. Strange: this suffering of ours seems to have performed miracles in my mother who now prays even the rosary quite easily. She personally told me that she said hundreds of Our Fathers and Hail Marys today. This is an empirical proof that suffering is the strongest means for the salvation and enlightenment of the soul. Happy are the souls who accept every pain from the Lord’s hands gladly and, in union with Jesus, make it a sacrifice for the expansion of Jesus’s Church in souls and society.
The sickness developed to such an extent that Ivan had to undergo surgery. Before the operation Ivan visited his spiritual leader, Fr. Vrbanek, a Jesuit who later described this important and significant conversation in Ivan’s biography. Ivan had come to him fully conscious that he was to die and that God requested from him the sacrifice of his life for the benefit of the young people Ivan had been working with. Fr. Vrbanek could only do his best to encourage and comfort him. Rememering the words of the Gospel about the seed that must fall into the earth in order to bear fruit Ivan said goodbye to his confessor with the following words:
Yes, I have been convinced of this for a long time: one must sacrifice! I am ready!!
And truly, Ivan was spiritually completely prepared to face God. The day before he was to go to the clinic he arranged for all his belongings and wrote his last will. Actually, this was the text of the inscription he wanted to be engraved on his tombstone, written in Latin and was found in the drawer of his desk after his death. The English translation follows:
Died in the peace of the Catholic faith. My life was Christ and death was my gain. I am expecting the mercy of the Lord and I am in undivided, complete eternal possesion of the Most Sacred Hearth of Jesus. I.M. happy in peace and joy. My soul is reaching the goal for which it was created. In God the Lord.
Reading the above words, one maintains a deep impression of admiration. Ivan was going out to meet death, to meet eternity with a peaceful soul, without fear or uncertainty, convinced that he would achieve the eternal love that he had devoted his whole young life to. This was a solemn finale of a wonderful life, the last testimony and confession of his deep and sincere faith that was his life vocation. He had fulfilled this vocation conscientiously.
Last days of his life
On 26th April Ivan underwent surgery at the Othorinolaryngologic Clinic on Draskoviceva Street in Zagreb (today this building houses an elementary school named after him). Unfortunately, the surgery was unsuccessful. Ivan developed meningitis of which he was slowly dying. On Sunday, 6th May his confessor, Fr. Vrbanek administered the Last Sacrament to him. Ivan was conscious, but he could no longer speak. After the ceremony Fr. Vrbanek, guessing what Ivan was thinking, reminded him of their last conversation about the sacrifice of life. “You are sacrificing your life for the Croatian Eagles, aren’t you?” Ivan looked at him cheerfully, his big eyes lit up and since he was unable to speak he just nodded in confirmation.
On 9th May, Ivan received a telegram from Rome in which the Holy Father sent his blessing to Ivan. Thus Ivan, who during his lifetime had loved and respected Christ’s Deputy, received this rare consolation in his last moments. He was still conscious when they told him the news. The next day, Thursday, 10th May, 1928 before noon, in the presence of his father and closest friends, Ivan entered into the eternal joy of Christ’s Kingdom. Dr. D. Kniewald, who was present at Ivan’s death, described Ivan’s last moments as follows:
Ivan’s breathing was slowing down and weakening gradually; he was lying peacefully, with his eyes closed. At one moment he opened widely his large eyes out of which a tear of death dropped. His eyes were directed somewhere high up and far away; they were peaceful, confident, sure; one more sigh, one more little, hardly noticeable jerk and Dr. Ivan Merz have
given his noble soul over to the Almighty.
The news that Ivan had departed for the eternal life spread all over Zagreb and then all over Croatia with the speed of lightning. That same forenoon after Ivan’s death the bells of the Zagreb cathedral announced Ivan's death. It was exception because the bells usually only toll to announce the death of a bishop. This alone proves how the Church respected Ivan and his work already at that time.
We all felt not that something terrible but rather that something great happened when Dr Ivan Merz died. We were all under the impression that he sacrificed his life for some cause – said his friends.
It is not necessary to mention the deep pain Ivan’s parents felt, who lost their only son and support in their old age. Ivan’s friends and associates, as well as all Croatian, Bosnian and Dalmatian youth, whose ideal leader Ivan had been, were deeply shaken.
The Catholic city of Zagreb gathered together on Sunday, 13 th May, at the Mirogoj cemetery. They were joined by numerous delegates of various Catholic organizations from all over Croatia. It was estimated that some 5000 people attended the funeral. The burial ceremonies were led by Bishop Dr. D. Premus. Judging by the number and respectability of the people who attended the funeral there had not been such an occasion since the death of Bishop Lang. It was a very solemn, formal occurance with numerous speaches; and Ivan’s remains were buried for eternal rest at the Mirogoj Cemetery with music and singing. In 1977 Ivan’s body was exhumed and placed in the Basilica of the Sacred Heart of Jesus in Zagreb, which church he had regularly visited during his lifetime.
Ivan Merz was Solemnly Beatified by Pope John Paul II Last June 22, 2003, in Bosnia.
Excerpt from: http://www.merz-mladi.org/en/who-is-ivan-merz.html
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Blessed Ivan Merz, Pray for Us!!!
For God's Greater Glory!!! Amen.
Blessed Alberto Marvelli: Engineer and Worker of Charity

Tuesday, February 13, 2007
My Insights...

Wednesday, January 31, 2007
My 30th Post... Yehey!!!
One time, while I'm browsing my friends' blogspots, I passed by my friend who has a post about the Ministry of Altar Servers, where I belong. It says there:
My dear altar servers, you are not here for recognition. Once you laid your foot at the Ministry of Altar Servers, death will come your way. We are here to carry our cross with Jesus and feel the nails in our hands bleeding...
Our service is a service of love and humility.
M - inistry of
A - Altar
S - Servers
MAS also means:
M - artyrdom
A - nd
S - ervice
to whom? to GOD...Let this be a challenge for all of us. Let us pray that our death be not a confessor's death but a death of a martyr proclaiming our Love to God and to his Church.Together, let us proclaim our fidelity and obedience to our Holy Father and to your proper local bishop.
So, I read everything from the first word to the last. Actually, it took me a hour to read, and understand everything.
And Then, I asked myself: "O my gulay! I'm not ready for something like this!"
That was three years ago.
Well. Certainly. That was all I asked myself all these time. I felt everything to the last drop. I felt the Death of my soul because of Sin. I felt it resurrected everytime that I go to the Altar, Bringing the Gifts of the people, seeing the greatest of all the miracles.
But I still ask myself: "What is this service I've been for three long years? Here I am, in the forefront of the Altar, a public figure, a servant of the Most High, a server, most, a sinner. I'm really not worthy after all this time. But why does these things happen?"
Guyz, after three years, and still, I have no face to show, no record to give, and most, no attitude to be proud of.
This is the Reality.
People think that we, as Servers of the Most High, including the Priests, do automatically have a clean record. We, so they say, have a very good conscience. That We, according to them, have a face to show to the People. Astang parang lampas na sa langit ang ugali!
They are wrong. Very wrong.
Because, behind the gestures, behind the bows, behind the responses, are very weak hearts. very weak souls. very weak spirits who call the Name of the Lord to help them. Guys, Brothers, We are all one people who call the Name of God, serving Him wholeheartedly. There is a reason to call us as very holy people. It is because We are according to the Image and Likeness of the One who Created us.
Ok. So Three years passed. What Happened?
Something happened.
God was there by my side, walking with me through all these time. Reality Speaks: "Without God, Everything is Impossible!"
As I write this special post, I thank God for the People He gave me; friends and enemies, and others. I thank him for the gift of Service. I thank him for the gift of the Eucharist, the reason for my service as an Altar Server.
Now, What? Three Years passed, and God is still there at the Altar.
01-31-06
:)
Monday, January 29, 2007
In Defensum...
Ok...
after a period of silence, the striker speaks to the last drop.
Three things, guys. THREE THINGS to know, to seek, and to understand.
First.
May mga balitang hindi ko matiis na hindi magsalita. Bakit? Kasi kung hindi ako magsasalita, ay baka isipin na manhid ako. Ngayon, May mga narinig ako, at nakita, na mga bagay na nakasakit sa mga kaibigan ko nang todo-todo. Akala mo daw kung sinong mag-astang parang Pari daw, frustrated daw sa bokasyon. Alam mo? Hindi ko ugali ang sumurot sa usapan, pero tignan mo ang sitwasyon mo. Look! Hindi na ikaw, kami na! Tignan mo ang mga pinaggagagawa mo. Tama ba namang magkaroon ng sexy pic na may alam sa CCC? Magisip-isip ka. Magisip-isip ka!!!
Second.
Humihingi ako ng taos-pusong kapatawaran sa mga taong nasaktan ko sa nakalipas na buwan. Alam ko na hindi na ako fit para magkasala at magkamali nang ganoong katindi, at alam ko rin na masyado naman kaming (take note: KAMI!!!) naging pabaya sa mga responsibilidad namin. Pero sana, ay huwag ninyo namang ibunton iyun sa isang tao lang, na parang siya ang may kasalanan kung bakit nangyari ang lahat ng iyun. Ladies and Gents, This is not a sin of one. We are Many. And look what you are doing. It is as if you are puting the blame into one person! What a nonsense blame! Again, sorry.
Third.
I want to give my heartfelt thanks to my fellow Altar Servers, kasi after Three great years, I'm still standing. Malay ko kung anong kinabukasan ng 2007 for me as an Altar Server, pero wish ko na lang na hindi siya magiging masama para sa bawat isa.
Wait. dahil post ko naman ito, at wala namang pakialam ang iba kung gawin ko ito, gagawin ko ito.
Fourth.
Ma, Dad, mga kapatid ko... Sorry kasi naging mas pasaway ako kaysa sa inaasahan natin(Meaning... ako man, hindi ko rin inaasahan iyun.). Promise ko sa inyo(kahit nagsasawa na kayo sa mga pramis nails ko.)... na magiging mas responsible child ako para sa inyo. Sana, ay magkatulungan tayo. Ilang libong beses ko nang sinabi sa mga blog ko na hindi ko kaya kung wala kayo. Sana nga, eh mangyari ang lahat ng iyun.
Ok.
The end of the last drop.
If ever (if ever lang, ha?) you have any commentos or everything... do not be more than afraid to post it. I will entertain enerything.
01-29-07
:)